Description : My married life is going well; my husband is kind and earns a great living. He’s also attentive in the bedroom—on the surface, it looks like an ideal marriage. However, my previous husband had already "trained" me—not just through anal play, but also through rough, non-consensual-style sexual acts—leaving me thoroughly conditioned, both physically and mentally. I started experiencing physical health issues after we began incorporating enema play, so I asked to pause the more intense sexual activities—partly to focus on trying for a baby—but he refused, and we ended up getting a divorce. We parted ways quite easily, yet even now, I sometimes find myself longing for the pleasure I experienced back then...